Okay, so I know that I haven’t written anything all semester but I didn’t plan for things to go like this. A lot happened from school to heartbreak to losing my best friend; I went from being excited about being 20 to finally understanding why getting older is so tough.
Although this semester got off to a rocky start, I know I will prevail.
Around the time of my 19th birthday, I published a list of things I wanted to have accomplished by the time I turned 20. Looking back at that post, I completed just about every goal I had set for myself. I believe the one I accomplished the most was getting out of my comfort zone because my life is absolutely different from the way it was in January 2018. Nearly nothing is the same. Although I’m grateful for the changes in my life, both positive and not-so-positive, I can’t help but feel a little lost headed into this New Year. However, despite everything that’s happening, I’m coming to the realization that life has to go on. I can’t sit and be sad, no matter how much I want to. I have to be there for myself because, at the end of the day, I have to be able to pick myself up and not count on others.
I will say that I learned a lot about myself and the whole world around me throughout this past year. I’ve noticed my tendencies to let people do what they want as long as they stay in my life and that’s not okay at all. I am supposed to be my biggest supporter and my biggest motivation. Going into this new year, I want to continue focusing on myself while exploring all of the new opportunities that are now open to me.
To put it simply, I’m looking at 2019 as a fresh start to try new things and make new mistakes. I’m excited and slightly nervous about what this new age and the new year will bring but I know I can handle it. Here’s to 20 & 2019!